i'm sorry, i don't write in here very often. after being here, i felt i needed change, a new habitat. so my livejournal is a new beginning for me. though i still write occasionally... i know i say all this a lot, it's just a reminder i suppose...things are getting into gear, it's a time of cleansing. as our bodies physically regenerate themselves, our minds regenerate themselves in a different way. cleaning out old ideas, finding new ideas, making changes, being who you want to be. it seems the only way that we hold on to our past is by the reminder that there was something else before the present.
i have spent a lot of this week digging up old memories, it has been so good. remembering times when i was felt truely happy in that moment, before something else came along or things got fucked up. having these moments gives me some better perspective on my present life, where the future is not known, and i can only work backwards to try and work forwards.
alright. i'm ready.